When my neck is in pain, I feel the pain of everything that surrounds my mind. I don’t know why but the sharpness of the slicing pain creates a lightning storm inside my brain. It makes me remember everything in me thats hurting: the jealousy, the stress, the sadness. I just want to scream! The pain continues to boil up around the tenseness which makes me feel…bad. Every sound goes right through me. Every thud makes me cringe. I get annoyed easily. I wanna punch people in the face. My mind wants to explode!! Agh. This always happens. I’ve gotta live through it. It’s hard but I gotta. I wanna cry from the pain; sob till I can’t let out another tear.
People ask me “are you ok?”. I’ll reply no. And I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to talk to you honestly, but it’s not you..it’s me. I’ll talk to a few because they are the ones that understand. I just don’t want to talk to many people a lot anymore. I get tired by telling people my problems. My mind travels a lot. It’s hard for me to concentrate on what people say. And I’m sorry. So I apologise beforehand if I seem distant. I can’t take so much people right now:/ and I am sorry…
