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Climb the mountain.

This past sunday I took two pieces of paper and stapled them together. One was good stuff. One was bad stuff. This is what I came up with…for the positive things..I couldn’t think of many, so I had others write some in. So yeah here it is. You can add whatever to it. Doesn’t matter to me.

Red(bad)
not noticed. Unloved. I just wanna be…happy! Pain. Fear. Anguish. Hard. She doesn’t love me. Sadness. Bleed. ALONE. Easily broken. Run Away. Ugly. Distraught. Procrastinator. Worthless. Depression. 3rd wheel. Heartbroken. I don’t wanna go through the motions! Pale. So stupid. Torment. Lonely. Frustration. Temptation. This sucks. SCREAM! Can’t learn an instrument. Fragile. Skinny. Wants attention. ENVY. Second thought. Hurting. Jealousy. I just wanna cry. Scratches. With no one to hold. Can’t sing. She’ll never love me. Always 2nd. It’s not fair. Anger. I’ll always be the best friend, nothing more. WHY ME? Can’t concentrate. I just wanna be FREE!!!!

And now…Good(blue)
Unique. Intelligent. Loving family. Role model. LOVED. Strong. Good hair. Smile! Athletic. Song of Songs 2:7. Strong in Christ. Redeemed. Best friend <3. Brave. Joshua 1:9. Wanted. Isaiah 61:3. Incredible just the way you are. Hott! I GOT JESUS!!!

So basically what I'm saying with this post is that we all have crap and bad things in our lives that bring us down a lot, but we need to be able to lose sight of all the negative things that are so easy to meander into and get stuck in. Let's all try to climb the mountain of our spiritual walk (or should I say climb) in life. We don't want to be in the valley. We want to feel the rush of excitement and adrenaline you feel as you grab onto that last rock ledge to push you up to the peak!

who am i living for?

hello everyone! So last week I bought Katy Perry’s new album Teenage Dream, just because I personally like Katy as well as her music though I admit that it’s not the best type of music; so I would not really recommend it to anyone. But anyway, as I was listening through the cd, I came across a song called “Who Am I Living For” which I began to listen to over and over again. I felt like there was a deeper meaning in between the lines that kept making me relistening to it. I felt like it has something to do with Katy’s faith and how she feels about things and she asks if she is really living the life she should be living. As I began to understand more and more about the song, it hit me that I need to share this song with others; so that they can express their opinions and ideas about what they thinking Katy is singing about. So that isexactly what I did! I messaged several of my friends on facebook about my whole plan and to see if they would write me their opinions! Thankfully eight of them did:) So now right below here are those 8 entries that my good friends have written carefully and truthfully on how they view this song! God had laid Katy Perry on my heart for a while now and I just feel like this song could be something that could be turning her life for the better. thank you and please enjoy reading and please comment if you have any questions or remarks:)

-joshua

(if you would like to send in your own opinion about the song, please just email me at almostactor@aim.com)

(also note: i did not change anything from what they wrote, these are all their own words and grammar, and due to security reason, I am not putting their full last name)

Nick C. – I think what she is singing about is, that she’s finally realized where she’s going in life. And she still feels Satan calling her name, and that’s not where she wants to go. And she just needs help. And it sounds to me like she is seeking God a little bit more, because she used Esther and what she went through in the bible. So i think that’s a step for her. But over all i think she’s just crying out for help in who she should live for. So yeah, there’s my thoughts (:

Megan - So i think she has or is realizing the differences in her life and some people that she knows and wondering the point of everything…. she has felt called to live for more and yet she is struggling to know how… She has a lot of good points in this song… yet i still dont know what to make of it…. if she was an artist who has not written all the other songs with the cuss words and lyrics that she has i would have assumed her to be a “Christian” artist…. so maybe she has changed her life or maybe she is just trying to appease more people with different types of music… thats my opinion… if it makes any sense…..

Shelby L. – Okay i just listened to this song and i agree with you. Absoutely. feel like she is saying that she is hearing a voice inside her soul saying come to me. being god. but she knows that from where she is right now its not going to be easy to get to where she needs to be with god its going to take a lot of strength and determination. and when she says i can see the heavens but i still hear the tides i feel like she is referin to hell as the tides that she is hearing. and than i just feel that she can see signs of god every where but she is still confused as to who she is living for. that’s what i get out of the lyrics. its a very good song. And she puts it in a very interesting way of looking at things (note: she meant “flames” not “tides”)

Jake B. – So, before I get into it, I just thought that I would tell you what I got out of each part of the song. In the first paragraph, she states that “there’s a phoenix in side of her” and that she’s ” marching to a different beat.” I believe- and I think it’s pretty obvious where she’s going with this- that she talking about not marching to the “beats” of the world, but that she’s marching for God.also, I believe that the “phoenix” is supposed to represent God. I could be wrong, though.

Next paragraph! Now she goes onto to say that she’s “ready for the road less traveled.” Evidently, she’s talking about her walk with God. It’s SO easy to just be apart of the world; to conform to its patterns. But she’s taking a step back from it all… then she states that “this is her cross to bear.” And, after all, isn’t this way for every christian?

Paragraph 3!“It’s never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called,
Standing on the frontline when the bomb starts to fall.”
She’s saying that it’s hard work- our walk with Jesus. Especially when we’re the ones on the front lines; the ones fighting the battle. And then she says that ” she can see the eavens, but she still hear the flames.” I believe that she’s talking about being tempted. Slipping in her faith so to speak. As so many of us do…

(for more of Jake’s message please click here I promise you won’t regret it!)

Hannah Z. – well it definately sounds like she is talking about spiritual things,but it also sounds like me just a while ago,knowing you can’t ignore the war any longer,meaning you either throw urself to satan or run to god…it could go either way…maybe we should pray for her(..?) luv the song though :)

Annie A. – well. i feel that song has heavy christian allusions. However, if you keep in mind there are many religions that believe in a heaven, that pray, etc, she could be referring to any faith that is popular now, or that she has chosen.
It does sound, to me, like she may have had some sort of wake up call, to remind her not only she is living for herself, but also there is a world of people looking up to her and watching her every move. It has potential to be both uplifting and encouraging in that she seems to be examining her life, knowing she has greatness, she is under pressure, and any word from her mouth could potentially shock the world. It appears that she has realized she can’t abuse this ‘greatness’, that she should not be living for herself but for God.
However, although I haven’t heard the whole albulm, Teenage Dream is played on the radio like all the time. and that is all about having sex/’giving it up’ and being someones ‘teenage dream’. I feel this is a mixed message to be sending.
Therefore, I think her heart may be headed in the right direction, but she could be simply saying she should be living for others, because she does have an important place in society, our culture views her as a celebrity and watches her every move, so she should be living in a way that inspires good and change in others. As I said, there are references to Christianity, but I don’t think that necessarily means she is turning her life over to God.
I do absolutely love the line: “I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames calling out my name.”
Kind of our daily struggle, huh?

Shelby U. – I feel that Katy Perry wrote this song to show how hard it has been for her to be called a follower of God. I think it is because the world has always called out her name with their temting, but short term love, and it will never stop. She says, “I can see the heavens but i still hear the flames calling out my name.” But at the end of it all, who was she living for? The world or GOD?

“I am ready to take the road less traveled, Suiting up for my crowning battle, this test is my own cross to bare, but i will get there.” I also feel her trying to say in these lyrics, that as she was growing up in her past, she always wanted to be different from the world and from the Christians that were just in it for the good feelings and rules. She knows that being different from this world will cause battle, and be a big cross for her to bare, but she knows with God she will get to the point where she knows that she has made a difference with her life.

The title of this song who am i living for….i believe in the end…after all of this life…she wants to know who she is really living for. Is it for her parents, popularity, possessions, or GOD? I know in the end i want to really know that i spent this life and everything i did in it…for GOD. Not for anyone else, not even myself.

Hannah D. – First of all, I want to let you know that I wasn’t expecting the song to be as powerful as it is. Hearing that song was just what I needed, so that’s really cool. I like writing huge eight page testimonies all the time, so I’m sorry if this is a little long. I’ll try to keep from rambling, but I just get really excited about God’s work in our lives.

I can definately see that Katy Perry has been called out by God and she wants to follow him. He obviously shook her up and she’s starting to realize that she’s been spending her life trying to please everyone but God.
She gets the whole spiritual warfare idea, probably because of her dad being a pastor and all. She knows there is a huge war raging on and she is trying to stand strong in the name of her redeemer, but she knows it could cost her her credit and fame.
It starts out saying she can feel a pheonix in her as she marches aone to a different beat. That is something almost all Christians feel. When we are about to take the daring step towards standing up for God, we think about everything that could possibly go wrong. Fortunately, it sounds like Katy faith in God that he’ll handle the problem. (after all, as it says in a verse that I forgot, this isn’t out battle, it’s God’s and He will take care of it.) She swallowed down her fear and took the first steps towards coming back to Jesus with the whole secular world watching her every move.

(for more of Hannah’s message please click here. I promise you won’t regret it!)

again thank you for reading all these wonderful people’s opinions! Please give me feedback for I am planning on sending these to Katy Perry herself soon!

please pray for her.

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Go to hell, Satan

Another what’s going on in my mind post.

Temptation is cruel. Temptation is evil and wicked and nasty. It’s like sweet sweet candy that makes your teeth instantly rotten to the core. It’s one of Satan’s many powers to steer us far away from our Father, Jesus. It’s so easy to be tempted. He makes it look so good. So great. He tells us “oh nothing bad will happen to ya, I promise” and guess what!? We believe him and pursue the “wonderful prize” that is waiting for us ahead. But then we go for it, and we fall. And we fall hard. Us- 0 Satan- 1. It’s all a game to him. He wants us to fall so we begin to feel discouraged and useless and unclean.

“Give us clean hands, Give us pure hearts. Let us not lift our souls to another”

We need to repent these sins to God. But we need to stay strong with Him so we can still have clean hands and pure hearts. And it’s so hard. Cause once you start getting close to God; the “bad word” devil is gonna be right there on your back whispering in your ear to do all the temptations that tempted you before. But times that by 1000000000. He’s gonna try so hard to make you fall again and again. But we gotta just tell him to go back to hell where he belongs and that we don’t want him in our lives and he will never break us. Though after time you probably will fall. Just get right back up and don’t let it phase you. Devil wants to see us hurt inside and out. He wants to see us nervous.dazed.confused. He wants our heart to be beating for all the wrong reasons.

Well Mr. Devil, I have one thing to say to you(and I apology(not to the devil of course) for one of the words I use but it’s just a little how I feel about him)

You ain’t gonna get me to be tempted like that ever again. That’s behind me. And I know with my Lord AND Savior along with several accountable and loyal brothers and sisters of Christ, that you will never be able to catch me in your net with that again! So go to hell you bastard!

Sincerely,
Joshua.

What goes on in my mind.

Note: this is how I felt on July 16th. I’m much better now.

Why do I feel this? Why do I feel this pain? Not just the physical but the emotional and spiritual as well. I’m feeling pain of sorrow and sadness. Jealousy. Envy. Increasing every day. I don’t want this to happen. I don’t at all. I was made to be me. Not someone else. Not my beat friend. I was made in Your image, not evan’s. Make me the way you want me to be. I’m feeling abandonment. I’m feeling lost and unbound. I sometimes don’t feel loved by others. The people I call my friends. It pains me inside so much. I trust them yet I don’t trust that they love me. What the heck!? What is wrong with me? The stress of life and sin is overpowering my shoulders and my life. My neck is increasing with pain, day after day. I believe that God can heal me but I’m too afraid to ask for prayer for I don’t want people to label me as the kid who always has something wrong with him. Or the kid who just wants to be the center of attention. I need trust my peers, my bros and sisters in Christ, that they will not judge me like that. But the pain of the devil is hitting me hard and making me feel like the way I feel.

God. I want to hear you. I want to feel you. I want to see you. I want to touch you. I love you intensely, but this pain and wickedness is getting in the way. I feel everything wrong with me is a punishment for falling to temptations time after time after time. And I need to know that is not true!!! You love me and you would never want to see me in pain. So God, please let me feel the love of my friends that is pouring out of their hearts for me. And God let them know how much I love them. And let them I’m sorry for whatever I’ve done.

Isaiah 60:2
I gotta remember that verse.

you’re beautiful…

I’ve gotta tell you
You’re beautiful to me
I’ve gotta show you
That you were made to be
Wonderful, can’t you see
You’re beautiful to me

I know that it hurts
But I know what you’re worth
A picture of perfection by design
And you are mine

Beautiful to Me – Jump5

so this song I feel, is a song to myself. I need to be myself, live the life that God has given me. I need to quit trying to be someone I’m not. I need to stop trying to be my best friend, because if it was God’s plan for me to my best friend than I would be my best friend. I need to love myself. With every flaw, every scar, every bump, I am perfect in God’s eyes, and that should be the only thing that matters. But we get too caught up in how the world sees us. We feel we have to be perfect in the way the world views us rather than how God wants us to be.

We all have our insecurities; you may say you don’t, but, you do! It might be that you feel you are too fat or too skinny or that you have acne or you have crooked teeth. The list could go on and on how many insecurities that there are in the world. It would probably wrap around the world like 7 times or something like that! I know I have many insecurities that make me hate myself sometimes. But we all need to remember this:

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  - Psalm 139:14

We are made in HIS image! God made all of us individually, He took time while making each one of us so we can be walking images of God! He hand crafted and sculpted our bodies and features to make us perfect to Him. No machine could not even come close to God’s craftsmanship. AGH! God is so good. We should be proud of our Holy Father in Heaven looking down on us smiling as we walk on earth showing His love in our daily lives!

So I know it’ll be hard. Trust me, I am gonna have a hard time doing this as well. But we need to try to throw away our insecurities and live knowing we are perfect in God’s eyes. Now, I’m not telling you to stop exercising or anything like that cause exercise is good for you, but still live your life in a Godly way.:)

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

Beautiful Things – Gungor

Not alone.

We have all had or are having those dark despairing days and nights that we feel lost and all alone. Sometimes we try to do things that we feel will help others out but our hardwork isn’t seen by anyone. It causes us to feel sad. Angry. Melancholy. Depressed. Unloved. We get into the idea that no one in this world could ever love us and we will always be left on the outside of everyday situations. Satan creates an easy way to make us feel pain emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and possibly physically.

It’s incredibly easy for us to believe no one could ever love us. We see all our friends and families in amazing relationships that we feel will last forever, yet we wonder; where the heck is my prince/princess charming?? And the truth is: we might not find them till later on in our life. We need to pray for that special person that God has planned for us to spend the rest of our lives with each and every night. Because one day, they will come. I promise you, they will come.

So for now as you wait for that girl or guy, you need to remember that you are loved. You are loved by your Holy Father, Jesus Christ! He will always be there for you whenever you need a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on. He will never ever leave you. You are His favorite! You need to know that. He wants you to be joyful in your daily life, not just happy. Having an intense joy in your heart for God is a great thing to have. It’s almost mandatory!

It says in Galations 5:22-23: “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” We need to have the desire to ingest the fruit of the Spirit into our bodies. We need to reek a pleasant smell of love, joy, peace, etc. so that people can “smell” us and know that our hearts are on fire for our Lord, Jesus Christ!

So this post didn’t turn out the way I had orignally planned for it to be but, I feel it is still a great post to read, with several different important topics all jumbled into one blog post.

The central message of this whole post is to know that you (yes, you) are never alone. God is always there for you. When everyone turns their backs on you, God will help you get through the turmoils and hardships that cause you so much pain and strife! He loves you. He is your Daddy in heaven:) Try to love others like Jesus loves us!

glory to god forever

I finally felt you, God What an amazing feeling it was. I felt You breathe Your love into my heart. I thought I was lost and alone, but I knew you had not lost me. That sunday night as we prayed over all those people, I silently prayed for myself as well as called out four different names. At that moment, my eyes became wide with love and passion. I had only felt that way once before, at lift camp. I could finally hear You. Hear Your voice. I had been suffering for quite some time, feeling like I wore a mask all the time. God. You tore that mask up, and made me New. Clean. Refreshed. You made me happy again. I can now say that I love myself (in the most non-conceited way possible).

I’m thankful for the things You’ve done, My loving Savior, my precious Jesus.

arms of love-kutless

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